the moon is full of ghosts tonight.
it will take many times of trying to describe all that has gone before, and where i stand, to get it right. maybe my folly is ever expecting to get there.
but i know this: i love the man i have now. LOVE him. and i want that to mean what it is supposed to mean.
he is kind, good, sweet, handsome, adoring, loving. he has a soft touch and the most loving heart. he is true, as far as my eyes can see. he is more than i have been able to really hope for.
and so. even though it scares me to trust again, i am trying. letting go of an entire decades worth of dreams is a brutal, ugly process. (thank God it is not worse. I know for some, it is.) but with every day, i am moving forward. FINALLY.
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